The circumstances surrounding my healing may not be what I expect, or even pray for...but I will be healed.
- Cole Gossage, 2020
This weekend I went to see the movie about Jeremy Camp's life, I Still Believe. The movie is based on his memoir, which I am also reading (I take pride in my Amazon Prime-like reading time of one to two days regardless of the length of the book, but that is not what is happening right now...). I will try not to reveal too many details other than those which I knew before I started reading the book, but this message is too important not to share.
If you listened to Christian radio any time circa 2003, there is a good chance you know at least a little of Jeremy Camp's testimony. His first wife, Melissa, died of cancer just a few months into their marriage. Throughout their short relationship, the couple often prayed that Melissa would be healed. There are a few instances in which she was healed temporarily, and she was in remission for their wedding. This cancer-free period was short-lived, though, as the cancer came back "with a vengeance" shortly after the wedding, and doctors revealed that there was nothing more they could do.
Jeremy wrote about his faith being challenged in this time: "God, why did you allow us to believe she had been healed?" His realization really resonated with me:
"The realization began to set in that perhaps she was indeed being healed in that moment - a different type of healing from what I had been praying for, believing for, and hoping for, but healed the way God wanted. I believed God had been revealing to Melissa that the cancer and all the pain and suffering was being removed from her as she entered His presence for eternity."
So, even if I am not healed on Earth, I will be healed in Heaven? Revelation 21:4 promises us that "He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and there will be no death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever." I look forward to this (while acknowledging that it will certainly not be the best part of eternity with my Jesus), but I admit that I have never exactly thought of it as "healing." Whenever someone prays that I will be healed, I admit that I cringe a little. My condition is medically untreatable. While God certainly CAN heal me on this Earth, I realize that it isn't very likely. I am 100% okay with that, and honestly (for reasons that I still have not quite figured out how to put in words) I would prefer it. But I realize now that healing on the other side of eternity is still healing, and it is promised.
